Long ass weekend is not here to stay

'If you ask someone for advice, listen to it. Don’t just look for someone to agree with you.'

Hi there, do you think i look decent with braids? It's not 1 braid but 2! I personally love to style my hair, i don't like it when it is just let down and hanging there boringly (lol). Plus, my hair is very dry so if i don't style it up even a little, i will look like a huge broom which is kinda funny and messy. 

I started to pick up a lot of braiding skills during year 2 because being in Poly made me realised that people who doesn't dress up and dresses up, makes a huge different. I mean d u h. But hello, it really takes alot of effort! 5 days a week, morning classes, still care so much to put moisturiser> primer> contact lenses> concealer> foundation> brows> eyeliner> blusher, etc, whatever your make up routine is. While those don't bother dressing up really clearly gave Z E R O fucks.

Personally, i only dress up either 2/3 days out of the week because the remaining days i have dance training so i will just wear my leggings and Tshirt. Actually my dress up just means i will either wear dress or skirt or non-sneakers. HAHAHA. But ok, maybe once in a month or two i will put on make up if i have really short lessons and obviously heading out after that.

I usually braid my hair during lessons either before or after i done my work or during my work if i am kinda lost. Hahahah. Well and also lectures because i am an attentive student who listens and braids her hair at the same time. Multi tasking at its best, improve my braiding skills and listen to the lecturer. Why not? Ahahahah. 

I miss those times man! Time really fly so past that in less than a month i will be out of Toa Payoh North, my internship, is going to be over!!! And exactly 1 month 1 day, i will be out of Singapore for a week cuz i'll be in Korea! I am still not as excited but i believe the excitement will kick in later. Hehehehe.

Anyway, i'm still braiding my hair almost everyday to work because i don't like my fringe to get in my way. It sucks. Although last week i was hesitating whether to cut bangs. HAHAHA. Luckily i didn't. When it comes to hair i can say i do cut them on impulse too cuz something about cutting my hair makes me feel lighter and happier. Hahaha. 

So this is my hair do for one of the days at work and please please ignore my terrible face complexion. Omg. Hopefully, they will heal? Mehhhhh. Must be the period! 

Normal braid

Fishtail braid

Yeap, i got bored while doing my work so i kinda did my hair. Hahahaha. Looks so pretty.



So anyway, Reagan is back from Taiwan last week and he bought me an eye pad! I needed a new eye pad anyway. SO YAY. Gotten a panda design too! Haven't been sleeping well lately thus eye pad is one of the remedy to help me drift off faster.

Brain oh brain.

I need my sleep so badly every night man.

Routine: Home around 8.30pm> Run at 9pm+ for 20mins or so then workout till 10pm+> Home to bathe and wait for my hair to dry 12am.... There goes my time wasted on my hair!!! ROAR. Sleep is so important. But of course not too much, i just need 6-8 hours. Please god. :(

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Last Saturday i went to my Granny's and finally visited my Popo, cousins and nephews! I miss them so much i am so sad. I'm sucha a bad kid to not have been visiting them for months. :'''( Luckily my nephews still remembers me and let me carry and play with them. Yay. :')

They are growing so quickly, i can't.

How many kids would i want when i get married? Or would i get married? Hahahaha.

Rei and Jei.

Selfie anywhere anytime peace.

Cousin came to fetch me home after that. HOORAY MAN.

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On the Sunday, went to the temple to pray ancestors and grandparents. Decided to wake up early and go to the temple with my Dad since it's been long. Spot me if you ain't blind. Hahahaha. My Dad went, 'Y'all go and burn, since you haven't been coming to the temple.' Idk is just a remark or what but it's kinda true that my Dad have been doing these. I am a bad kid part 2. :'''(

So we headed to the Market to have breakfast with the Changs. How i miss the sinful yet delicious breakfast that have to queue for 20-30mins. The wait was definitely worth it! Hehehe.

Reached home and took a dump, so shiok! It is as if whatever i eaten is being pooped out and i didn't gain any weighgt but obviously we know this is not true or possible. Pffffft. Watched a few hours of Keeping Up With The Kardashians and honestly, i am hooked. So hillarious and of course there's sad moments. :'( // :D

It was nearly Evening and i told my Sis that i wanna bake Oatmeal cookies and she was apparently more excited than i am. LOL. Hers turn out to be more successful than mine. Why i so lousy. :( It's my Sis first timing baking also man!

Eventually, it got better after a batch! But i guess i need to buy the right ingredients too. Hahahaha. These cookies are purely made out of oatmeal, bananas and peanut butter!

Cook life didn't choose me, i choose the cook life.

And i'm gonna keep cooking or baking or whatever shizz. I wanna be able to cook for my friends and family in the future. I secretly wish i would marry a hubby who can cook though, like my Papa. ^_^ Hehehehe.

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On Monday, which was a public holiday, YAY TO NO WORK, i went out with Anna and we explored the north line. Hahahahah. We went from Woodlands to Ang Mo Kio to Upper Thomson Road.

Fun and funny adventure. We didn't really did much. Our aim was just to explore the north and not hit Town. Hahahah.

Initial plan was to go Expo and get her Macbook however plans changed and so exploring the east was cancelled. OHYA, and the train towards Pasir Ris was so crowded too so we decided on the Red line. Hahahaha

We caught a movie 7500, a horror movie at AMK and it was uninteresting! Not scary and kinda has no conclusion... Pffft...

So after I asked around my friends how do i get my ass from AMK to Upper Thomson, i still had to figure out myself. Wth man hahahaha. Well, it was interesting to be adventurous.

And of course i found it after a few hours. Muahahaha. Not bad for an directory idiot. Honestly, i might just be getting better at this. Slowly but surely.


YAY. So i wanted to try Udders for the longest time and it was a mistake sadly, the food sucks. HAHAHA. Sorry Anna. :(

Well, more trips to go since there's much more to eat around this area with recommendations by my friends or Sister or colleagues. Hehehe.

So selfie shots before dining in since we weren't really hungry too.

We chat and reminsice so much shit. Great day out with ma banana. Ended my day with her with a can of cool beer. So bad ass to know that she wanted some beers. Heheheh.

Sucha pretty shot LOL.

Took 52 back with her and went to HKE to find Xiaonard to pass him my impulse. Hahaha. I learnt my lesson.

Have a great weekends lovelies muah xx

My kind of Friday

'We live in a generation where we all have to wear masks and play parts to make it through the battlefield of dating in the 21st century. There is no such thing as giving it your all.'

Weeeee~ Finally last working day of the week and i'm able to enjoy till next Monday since it's a public holiday! Well, kinda wish i can experience Hari Raya once well maybe just not now i guess. Hahaha.

Well, i don't know is me or what but the office seems to be getting colder and colder each day and while typing this post, my hands is actually literally freezing badly. Pffffft. It's like i will suddenly spazz because it is too cold. Ahahahaha.

My hair colour in the picture look so pretty but now the colour has faded quite badly, well into pinkish purple actually and i kinda don't like the fact that it looks so pinkish cuz i think whenever i wear or have pink on me i look fake. Ahaha. I just feel like people will judge me when i wear pink and think i look well, ugly in pink... :(

Personally, why would i think of it that way is because i'm not a fan of pink. Besides that my build is quite big for a female and to me i have the thought that people who dresses in pink MUST be petite and small and tiny, like kids. Hahaha. Like you just gotta be 150ish and skinny to wear pink... Yes yes yes i know is just me. :/

Well, i do have a pink skirt and top. Like FULL PINK. I wore the top like teice and the skirt like 4/5 times. They were bought in 2013. I think is just me and the pink issues. Ahahaha.

2 hours more to go and i'm headed to School for Dance. I haven't dance since last week cuz i couldn't make it for Dance. Oh well. Less than a month and i'm outta Braddell area! Time flies!

I thought i would have many adventures along this Red Line area and explore different food places at upper Thomson especially cuz i've googled quite alot and i was so excited about it man!!! ._. But i guess i've no right company and time.

I've been pretty lazy this week at work BUT i still finish up the tasks that were thrown to me of course. I think is my period. It sure is! LOL.

I was being all cranky and happy yet annoyed yesterday. Even i myself confused myself. Gosh sounded so retarded and weird.

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So i read a website about well life basically and these quotes i quotes are probably the ones i will stick to most. To me at least, they are my top 'Note To Self'

Start making your own happiness a priority.

Start noticing and living in the present. 

Start forgiving yourself and others. 

Start being more open about how you feel. 

I shall paste the link here: Start doing for yourself!!! Read it! I think it really is useful.

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Oh oh oh, i'm actually smiling lips to lips. Hahaha. Yes this was when i was about to get my hair done. Look at that roundy fatty cutie face. Awww. HA. :)

Can't wait to head back home and bathe and watch my english drama series all night long. Weeeeee~

Muah xx

My life may not be awesomely pretty but at least my hair is

'Every person wants to feel deeply seen and understood by someone in their lives… but few people want to take the time to explain or reveal themselves.'

Yay! Finally i'm looking forward to Dinner later on! So recently my meals are pretty irregular and slightly(ok, may more than slightly) unhealthy i should say. I will have a good Breakfast though cause it is my favouriteeeee meal, skipped Lunch and Dinner instead combined them together.

Why?

Because i wanna lose weight, duh, yea since forever and i've been only saying and my actions aren't proportionate enough to match up so yea, i decided on such diet.

I've started to get my ass back on track too by running regularly on days i don't have dance. So it would be at least 3 times a week. I will also get my fat ass back to the gym on Sundays because usually i've no plans on Sunday!

I am trying WILL to stick to my words this time round and i really hope my inner strength and mind don't be so fucking weak. 

I know i can do. I know, i just know.

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So here's a break down~

Breakfast:

Peanut butter spread on wholemeal bread x2 OR Wholemeal bread with ham and cheese

2 baby bananas or 1 big banana (Depends what my Papa bought)

2 hard boiled eggs (if wake up slightly early for werk)

Lunch:

Chocolate flavoured trimshake as a replacement for meals (idky i took chocolate cuz not my fav :/)

Around 4pm-5pm:

A bowl of salad (Veggies, cherry tomatoes, carrot, chickens)

Dinner:

Chocolate flavoured trimshake as a replacement for meals

A fruit (Depends what's there at home)

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However, sometimes i will just eat fruit the rest of the day if i've no appetite or after my run because apparently i've caused my stomach to be eating itself on the inside hence no appetite. :/ (really bad)

An after run selfie from ytd. Ahahaha. I literally did lunges my way through the highway area and i dare say i did 100!!! Not in one goal though but still!

My ass is aching madly like a bad bitch. Even by walking... But i love it. 

Okay, here's a dirty little secret i would like to share, ever since day 1 i tried squats till today, now. I'm proud to say my ass have transformed and yes, i checked and touched my ass everyday that's because it makes me happy to see it is getting in shape!!! 

Call me sick means you don't squat. HMP. So yeap. More to go. I can't really admire my back profile but the side profile is good enough! You know when you see dat ass gets curvier and perkier. Eyegasm. Ahahahahaha. 

So on Sunday, i ran 8km in about an hour and is slower than my usual pace since i just officially get back on track. So i ran the PIE route which is my first time and there's only forest and road and a dark path.

I won't lie, i was literally praying that nothing will fucking happen!!! This is probably my first time praying while i run man. AHAHAHA. Thinking about it makes me wanna laugh. That is not the funny part. Read on!

The funny part was when i was halfway running and praying... Suddenly freaking human RAN PAST ME! What i did? I FUCKING SCREAMED. HAHAHAHAHA. I checked my behind ocassionally for my safety and there was no one so i wasn't expecting anyone to ran pass me but look what happened.

It was major embarrassment. It was just another runner and i just had to scream. Yeap. Luckily he was on his headphones and run faster than me. He probably got shocked my my screamed but just continued running cuz he don't hafta do anything either.

It was so funny i was running and giggling to myself the next moment. Fool much. Heh.

Well, It was stretching time when i was done with my run all sweaty and wet. Oh gosh. Feel so good yet nasty! Did my squats and handstands shizz. I danced a little because the song playing on my iPhone. Hmm mmm, i waz feeling it baby! Ahahahah. ;)

Alright, enough about my current life although there's many little details to talk about.

So i was talking about dinner! So some times back i won this vouchers from Peach Garden and yes gonna dine there later! 

Googled the menu and the food seems not bad! Hopefully we won't get lost when we are on our way there later though since it is located at Orchid Country Club and i've never been there before!

Of course, tip to losing weight is to eat in moderation! Exercise regularly. I ain't no expert but these tips are read from else where. Treat yourself maybe once every 2 weeks? But then again, you're not a dog so why would you treat yourself with food? Hahahah. Well, i'm glad i'm not a fan of desserts. Hehehehe.

Alright, back to werk. Hehehe. Update soonz. Muah xx

I like you or I love you?

'Everyone is allowed to experience the full range of human emotion.'

When I say I like you, I am telling you that the first impression i have on you is nice. On top of that, I indirectly think we can get along well if we ever hang out in the future and this apparently means I wish to hang out with you. 

So let’s say we started hanging out and chats frequently. I like it and i also hope you feel the same way. This means I am getting to know you better than before and probably am feeling comfortable being myself since we are still hanging together. 

P/S: I don’t like going out with people who ask me to keep my mouth shut, in other words DOESN’T ALLOWED ME TO BE MYSELF. You can kindly go fuck yourself.

Anyway, back to topic. Let’s say we started dating and it’s been going on for quite a while means I really like you and I want you to tell me the same too. Not just, ‘I really like you’, I also want to hear you saying that you’re comfortable to be with me. Because if you're not feeling comfortable, you hafta tell me and we gotta stop since it is unfair to both parties. I will miss you but i won't force you cause i personally don't like it too.

Let’s say there’s a time regardless I was sober or not, I told you that I love you.....

Yes, I know those three words are like, Da bomb. Heavenly. Godly. Whatever you name it, i don't really care.

My point is, when any single soul out there that says those three words to someone, other than telling you that they are deeply or genuinely in love with you. The second reason is because that soul there really likes you a lot and feels so comfortable with you that he/she is able to say those three words to you naturally. Naturally. No force. No gun pointing to the head. No truth nor dare. 

How should the other party react? Happy or Sad? Yes, i know some will feel conflicted because you don't if they really meant it or not, right? Of course, there's many different views but i'm talk for myself so yea. Don't freaking argue with me. C'mon, i will box you. Ahahaha.

In my case, i don't really know what love is because i've never experience or really truly felt. But then again since i've never truly felt and experience it, what i felt and that moment might be love and i still wouldn't know, right? Fuck this complication. Ahaha.

Back to those three words.

Let's say you doubt those words and get your feelings all messed up because of those three words i said to you.

I mean why? Just why? WHY?

Shouldn't one feels happy? Just happy. No other interrupted thoughts. It is not easy to get someone to said these words to you. It really is not easy to hear those words. I get that from my friends though BUT. Ok, i don't wanna digress.

So yea. Why would you doubt those three words coming out from my mouth? I mentioned above, it just came out naturally. WHY WOULD I FREAKING FORCE MYSELF TO SAY THINGS I DON’T WISH TO?

Why can't you just live in that moment? After all what happened in that moment and why i said those words were true. Even if i have alcohol in me, my mind still speaks whatever it is meant to be told to you but i was just too scared to say. So i think i need to thank those booze actually. But too bad. You didn't appreciate what happened in that moment but doubt the shit outta me. 

I really like you and i love you. I think emotionally wise, it is roughly the same. 

Alright.

Let’s say I said, I like you instead of I love you. Would you doubt? I mean is still a 'L' word after all, no? 

I personally also think is not really possible because I love you is easier to say them out compared to i like you.

WAIT.

This still doesn’t change the fact that it came out naturally even though it is easy to be said!

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To conclude, 

In my opinion. I personally think that i love you is similar to i like you. The difference is that, you say i like you to people you sorta just met and you say i love you to people you're comfortable to be with already. My theory. Hah. Suck diz.

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I honestly don’t know what the main point of this post is because everything that is typed out here just came out naturally. My mind was speaking in silence to my fingers and BAM, i've got a post up! ahahaha! Cool or koolz?

Go fuck yourself. Ahahaha. I like you, i love you. Am i confusing? I don't know bye.

Kisses to you baby xx