Thunderstorm.

Last night i stayed over at my Granny's place. Just like the good ol' days when i was young i used to stay there whenever i'm free. Love it.
I turned in at 3am+ after finishing Revenge Season 2. Can't wait for Season 3 man! Anyway, 2 hours later, i found myself awake by the heavy rain and strong wind! I swear i was frightened! Due to the strong wind, the curtains were flying everywhere crazily and the toilet door opened by itself. I almost died. Oh my goodness. I hecked my phone and it was only 5.35am. I immediately went back to bed with my eyes shut hoping i would fell back asleep despite the loud disturbance. I was frightened partly because i watched The Conjuring 2 days ago and i was scared shit. Hahaha omg.
I still remember when i was young, i slept in the same room with my parents and whenever it's raining heavily and there's thunderstorm, i will run up to my parents' bed to sleep with them cause yes, i was scared! Hey i was like 4/5 years old only. When i was older 6/7 years old, i shared room with my Sister and whenever the same thing happened, my parents will come to our room to check on us and calm us down from the thunderstorm! I still remembered there was this time i cried because i was really scared. Hahaha.
How i wish i can relive those days again man!

Grateful and Thankful.

I am really thankful and happy to be in Domino Pizza and our hard work finally paid off too! :') The trainings we had were definitely tough but i am glad we made it through! I am still shocked that we actually won the Best Senior Item! I really don't know how to express myself when i heard, 'The Best Senior Item is..... Domino!' I immediately screamed and when i reached the stage tears of joy just flow down my cheeks uncontrollably. :') I really wanna to thank all those we have helped us through!!! 

I really learnt a lot through this journey because in my group, most of us have very low confidence, including myself. I wanna thank my choreographer, Jevin, who believed in all of us throughout and is constantly trying his best to boost our confidence! He really put in all the efforts he have in us and help us in all ways. I am so touched that typing this post makes me cry. :'(

Besides Jevin, another person i wanna thank is Ben Chia! He was one of the first few seniors i met when i first stepped into SDZ. He is constantly there to guide me and push me further. I thank him for being so patient and for those words of encouragement that he sent me. :'( 'Thank You', is not enough to express how happy and grateful i really am.

I am very glad that we have this collaboration with TPDE, i have learnt so much from them just by watching their performance and cheers! I didn't make any new official friends from there yet but at least when we see each other, we will smile to each other! :) 

I can't wait for In Sync Volume 2 man!

Upset.

Well, yes. I am actually feeling upset.

I seriously don't remember when was the last time i feel this way. I do know that I used to be upset about things very easily because i let it bother me, i let myself think too much.

Today, something happened and it triggered that emotional side of me and till now, i can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop feeling upset. I tried to think of ways to stop this feeling but i can't. I don't remember what remedies i used to stop feeling sad in the past. I tried to eat, take a hot bath, watch funny videos, but it just won't go away... This sucks. 

I was actually confused whether i am feeling angry or upset but after some thoughts, i realised i am upset. I am sad because i figured out why did it happen. Honestly, I would choose to be angry over upset. Anytime. Why? This is because being angry allows me to think about anything. Whatever things i do, i will find ways to vent my anger on the thing i am doing and eventually, i will feel better. Besides that, i can probably sleep it off and the next day i will be fine. 

But when i am upset, everything i think seems to be very confusing. I can't think straight at all. I won't have the mood to do anything because i will keep thinking about what happened hence i can't concentrate.

I asked myself why am i upset instead of angry? Hurt. I am hurt that is why i am upset. I know you can be angry even if you are hurt too. However, when someone is hurt their emotional side will be touched which makes them fragile. Well, at least for me.

I don't know whether this feeling will stopped when i wake up from my sleep or not. This is just plain annoying. I don't want my new day to be ruined by yesterday. This is just not right at all. I actually wanted to tweet about my feelings but i don't like it. I DON'T LIKE EMO TWEETS. It's annoying and stupid. I just want to tweet about happy or funny things that happened. That's all.

I pray that i will stop thinking about it. Sigh. Goodnight. 

Back on!

Hello lovelies!

Just created a new blog because i wanted to start new. Sounds so cliche. Hahaha whatever. However, if you are curious what/how i used to post at my old blog, the link is BELOVED-MANDY!

I don't know how often i will update this space but i think you don't really care anyway. Hahaha.

Anyway, this week would officially be the last week of School. Not hype about it because i need to spend my time to study and also go to School on the 14th, 15th and 21st Feb for my written exams... Can't wait to get over and done with EST! I have a looooooooong list of things waiting for me to do them during da holidays!!!

Hope(I actually spelt it as hoe lol) i will have something interesting to update when i am back! Goodnight!

P/S: I love pandas x
P/S/S: I sense that this Blog will be boring wtf... :(