I seriously don't remember when was the last time i feel this way. I do know that I used to be upset about things very easily because i let it bother me, i let myself think too much.
Today, something happened and it triggered that emotional side of me and till now, i can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop feeling upset. I tried to think of ways to stop this feeling but i can't. I don't remember what remedies i used to stop feeling sad in the past. I tried to eat, take a hot bath, watch funny videos, but it just won't go away... This sucks.
I was actually confused whether i am feeling angry or upset but after some thoughts, i realised i am upset. I am sad because i figured out why did it happen. Honestly, I would choose to be angry over upset. Anytime. Why? This is because being angry allows me to think about anything. Whatever things i do, i will find ways to vent my anger on the thing i am doing and eventually, i will feel better. Besides that, i can probably sleep it off and the next day i will be fine.
But when i am upset, everything i think seems to be very confusing. I can't think straight at all. I won't have the mood to do anything because i will keep thinking about what happened hence i can't concentrate.
I asked myself why am i upset instead of angry? Hurt. I am hurt that is why i am upset. I know you can be angry even if you are hurt too. However, when someone is hurt their emotional side will be touched which makes them fragile. Well, at least for me.
I don't know whether this feeling will stopped when i wake up from my sleep or not. This is just plain annoying. I don't want my new day to be ruined by yesterday. This is just not right at all. I actually wanted to tweet about my feelings but i don't like it. I DON'T LIKE EMO TWEETS. It's annoying and stupid. I just want to tweet about happy or funny things that happened. That's all.
I pray that i will stop thinking about it. Sigh. Goodnight.
