Free da mind

I wanted to Blog. So badly. But i rarely have the time to be on my laptop. :(

I'm dancing almost half my day away, everyday. Besides that i have started on my Final Year Project which is a huge stress i am willing to handle as long as i hold the chances of getting an A. Hahaha. I know is not an easy task but well, my Dad always ask me to aim high so at least i fall, i will fall to the middle not bottom. On top of that, i am still working with my ITP company and because i am really very pumped to travel next year, i am also working some part time event job. Well, nothing feels as good as spending your own money. Hahahaha. I've been hitting the gym regularly too, getting those biceps baby. Hehehe.

I'm really very very excited to share about my Korea Trip but i really am too busy. :( If only sleep was optional, i think i can still come out with a post of two a week man.

Yes, i am complaning and whining. HAHAHA.

Blogging really frees my thought and kinda relieve a little stress.

I'm so fucking busy. I need a fucking break or stop to take a breather man. Everyday i will come home feeling all exhausted and brain dead. It sucks. What's worst is not being able to sleep immediately because i have shit to complete and time is required if i want a good job be handed over.
I don't mean i am not enjoying my life currently but the things that have been going on is becoming like a cycle that i must commit to and as much as i love doing them, somehow it seems like i'm not enjoying while i am in it.

I guess it may be the mood that affects my thinking. Regardless, i'm glad i won't be in Singapore for a week next week. Flying off to Bangkok. It's like a dream come true man, travelling with friend(s), i'm grateful to have such parents that gives me my fair share of freedom. :)

What can i say? What is a better way to spend my last week of holiday away before School starts? Hopefully, it will be more than i expected! But i still can't believe i am going for 6 days, it actually seemed a little tooooo damnnnn long. Hahahaha.

It's 3.10am and i finally done what i am supposed to do. Phew.

Gotta wake my early ass up and hit the gym. Then head to NUH for clients meeting for my FYP then back to School for dance. I can do this shit.

Goodnight sexy bitches xx

Sick Humandy #geddit

Sleep as much as you can, the completely sleepless nights are on their way.

I don't usually fall sick easily but when i do, I feel so terrible. I've been ill since Saturday and i'm not recovering, even if i did another sick pops out. :(

Started out with fever, back ache and a really bad pounding headache, the fever subsided then a new friend, sore throat came about. Swallowing saliva is the last thing i want to do because it hurts like a bitch. I don't even wanna talk man. Headache is still on off which has cause me to be woken up in the middle of the night. Did i mention that i hate to be woken up at such ungodly hours? _|_ Why? I have a tendency to feel very scared and will shed a drop or two. It's as if i was forced to wake up but yet no. Ah, it's just weird and i hate it.

Last night, i woke up at 4am and 6am. Woke up with another new friend which comes in double, cough with phlegm. Fuck this shit man. May i recover fast so i wn't be stuck at home too. Been lazing around at home doing nothing but drinking up hell loads of water till i feel so bloated but for the sake of my throat i have to. Eating is also something you find a hassle besides the biting but the fucking swallowing. As much as i like to be sick ONLY BECAUSE people says you will freaking lose weight but it never ever happens to me, i still feel the same. Hahahaha fml.

The other night i woke up at 5am because my throat felt so terrible, i sat alone in the kitchen was feeling quite miserable and scary actually. Thank god i found honey and sucked 2 spoonful of it and also down 3 bottles of cold water. Headed back to my room and it suddenly felt so damn cold, i wrapped myself like a burrito so tightly and covered half my face. I never felt so sick wtf. The next Morning, my throat felt better. H O O R A Y !

Pray to all gods that i will recover before i leave for Korea in 5 freaking days. Holy moly, still hasn't set in yet but it's coming. Hehehehe. Liquid diet is my best friend now. I miss eating. Lolol.

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So the other day before i fell ill, Friday. I went back to School to have post-internship briefing and also i had quite a deep cut when i was using the damn penknife. Nb, say hi to another new fugly scar on my hand. :(

Anyways, i went to Fairprice at JEM to do some grocery shopping cause i intended to bake cheesecake. I was so excited yet afriad i would buy wrong ingredients and shizz. Like i said before, THE COOK LIFE DON'T CHOSE ME. Pfft. I spent almost an hour walking around searching, googling and asking Eunice whether the ingredient is right or not because she baked it before. She kept claiming it's so darn easy..... It's not. LOL. I even had to double check before i went to pay for the things.

So i started to make the cheesecake with laptop by my side cause i need to read the receipe. I have to read at least twice or thrice to make sure i don't go wrong or mix wrong. I'm clumsy at times so better to be safe, read more than once... #loser

I took about 4/5 hours to complete doing the crust and batter. So long wtf. I was confused for a moment because i was like doing half half which i clearly shouldn't. Idky i did. Can't remember, whatever. Well. The strawberried were cut into hearts cuz i want to make it look lovely. Ahahaha.

So the next Morning I was excited to cut it open till i realised i was sick. Ugh. I was supposed to meet my friends and collect our color run package. I was excited to bring for them to try! :( In the end, sick. My Sister was excited for my cheesecake too. Hahaha. I was so scared it would taste very awful. :( It looks nice but taste is the one that matters after all.....

So after I cut it out for her to try, she gave me critics. 

1. The jelly, i put too much water

2. The batter, slightly sour because i didn't put any icing sugar

3. The crust was slightly wet, i think i put too much butter

Overall, it tasted ok because the jelly was sweet enough to compliment the sour batter and the crust was actually ok just that the side weren't as hard. I give myself a 7/10. Ahahaha.

I can't wait to bake the next batch, which will be after Korea! Hehehe. I wanna try making Nutella flavor too although not a fan of chocolate. I guess my Sissy will love it. 

So hungry, only had watermelons, banana and a piece of wholemeal bread for breakfast... Oh of course water too. Just had another banana. Yay cauze Dad is currently cooking Dinner, salmon, broccoli, carrot. Favouriteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :>

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Selfie on the bus the other day on 157 back home, before some retard decided to sit next to me when there's so many other fucking seats on this empty upper deck. Oh well.

So my Internship has finally ended and i am so free weeeeee. I can't believe 5 months flew by so quickly, it's gonna be 2015 in 4 months. WTF. It's like i only turned 19 yesterday and the next thing i know i'm gonna freaking be 20. Hitting the 2 in my age. This is so surreal like how i'm flying off to Korea on the 1st Sept. wtf wtf wtf. 

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Finally have plans going on tomorrow. Cheers to no more staying home! Hahaha. Can't wait to catch the movie LUCY. Trailer looks so awesome!

Thin lips or luscious lips? None. Cuz my lips are ze best for me. Ok whatever bye!

Muahhhhh xx

It's Friday bitches

'You don’t need a book to tell you how you ought to live your life. You can live your life by whatever philosophy you wish — as long as you found truths that satisfy you.'

Oh yeah! It's finally Friday! I can smell dem weekends in less than 30mins. Muahaha.
Feeling hyped for no apparent reason. I suppose my hormones. Lolol. Anyway, today is pretty much a good day and time flew by. Yay.

Had a good deep sleep although i slpt at 2am last night fml. Totally KO and couldn't wake up. Felt like i died in my dreams. Hahahah.

My dream was ridiculously funny and i found myself woke up giggling, yes the moment i sit up. Why i so funny. HAHAHA. It was like 3 in 1, wtf man. I think that explains about my deep sleep, too occupied with my dream thus i couldn't really wake up.

Recently, i've redownloaded snapchat and thinking back i am glued to snapchat so much that i do it every 5 mins. Hahahaha. But eversince i deleted and no one snapchats me but i've one fan. Ahahahah. Well, better than none. Hohoho.

Ok la, idk what to talk about anymore. Pfft. 8mins to end of work. fyeahhhhh

This is my #ootd shot about 16 years back? I look like a boy and i am aware of it. Hahahaha.

Farewell Dinner and Drinking session later onaround Central area. Yay! Kinda miss that place since it has been months since i hang around there. Time to relax ma mind from work.

Fun times are good times

Shall end of a picture of mini me in crop top bitches. I do wear crop top even before the trend started. Ahahahaha! The person beside is my sister. Hohoho. My Mummy at the back and there is my Uncle. Anyway, my dimples are so deep muahahaha.

Have a pleasant weekends lovelies heh
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Love me some mini biceps

 'Instead of wasting time and energy trying to do the impossible, why not do the next best thing? Learn to deal with people as they are in order to get the result you desire. If you can’t change them, then guide them to do as you wish. Otherwise, let them go.'

  Well hello there! It's Monday! No, i'm not excited because it is Monday but it means closer to the last day of my Internship on 21st August! Another 8 days and i'm officially out of here. Time really flies man, I've been here close to 5 months and honestly, it doesn't feel like it at all man.

Personally, I think Internship is scary?  From the working environment to the people to reality basically. I really can't imagine myself being a legit adult and working 5 days a week, 9am-6pm. It just scares me. Right now having my Internship, i already feel like i don't have a life because my Morning and Afternoon are literally taken away from me, i mean my life, cannot be taken back. :'(

As much as i don't wish to think of my future, but just take one step at a time and see what's there for me, it is just not enough and risky. They said, 'if you fail to plan, means you plan to fail', and that is really true. C'mon obviously, i'm concern about my future, i mean in this century who isn't??? Unless you are rich as fuck or talented/gifted as fuck then you probably can relax.

I'm really worried for my next semester. I'm so afriad i won't do well. I wanna do well and it really is my last shot to do well too. So i can't choose at all. It's literally do or die. Why? Because after that, i will be graduating with whatever i scored! Ugh. It is just upsetting to know that it is getting more and more competitive every single fucking day.

As much as i want to go University, the thought of smarter humans out there just bring me down or rather crush me. All i can think of is, 'So what if i did well? It is definitely not enough and there's definitely more humans out there scoring better than me. So how? What do i fucking do? I mean i can't do anything but study. However, it just isn't fucking enough and it just fucking annoys the shit out of me! Dammit fuck my life.' #life

Then when i stress myself with all these bloody future plans, i will tryna chill myself down and say take one step at a time and the whole fucking cycle repeats. Gosh ughhhhh :(

Life or life?

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OK OK OK DONT THINK

So i've been going home straight after work because my running shoes await me. Hahahaha. So this was taken a week back or so, i can't remember. And i actually feel like a different person in some ways..... Do i look different??? I hope i do, i like changes, depends on what though.

So i will selfie before my run if i'm early for my run, yes i usually run at 9pm and no it not early. Hahahaha wtf. Well, i have been quite interested in my own biceps lately. I mean i've been flexing it and looking at it although it is still small and tiny but well, i have to admit it is muscular, to me ok to me. Hmp.

I haven't lift in months and i feel useless. Can't wait to lift me some weights.

Thank god, handstands and pushups to help me tone those little baby bit by bits. Hehehe.

Well, those pictures are my pre run but after my run i will look like shit and sweaty and i love it. LOL. I mean i sweat easily and i really look shit but feels gooooood. Hehehe.

Post #runfie ahahaha

I decided to tgiw this week although i know i've work the next day but i just wanna have a taste of how dead will i feel and look. Probably gonna die at work. Hahahahah. But i think it will be fun. Well, haven't been to tgiw for 5 months soooooo... Hahahaha.

Friday probably gonna be another round too. Weeeee~ Well, people thinks i party every week but no i actually don't... I love my isolated stay home weekends accompanied by my friends or dramas too... There must always be a balance and it fun when you have a balance of both. You will feel that your life is interesting! ;)

Hair i did for work last week or so. Have been wearing my hair up cuz da pink too pink, my heart can't take it.

Tattoos, loving ittttttttt. Still searching. Weeeeeeee~

Pink hair, pink lips

(my friend thought i was naked when i showed this picture... I lmao)

muah

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Long ass weekend is not here to stay

'If you ask someone for advice, listen to it. Don’t just look for someone to agree with you.'

Hi there, do you think i look decent with braids? It's not 1 braid but 2! I personally love to style my hair, i don't like it when it is just let down and hanging there boringly (lol). Plus, my hair is very dry so if i don't style it up even a little, i will look like a huge broom which is kinda funny and messy. 

I started to pick up a lot of braiding skills during year 2 because being in Poly made me realised that people who doesn't dress up and dresses up, makes a huge different. I mean d u h. But hello, it really takes alot of effort! 5 days a week, morning classes, still care so much to put moisturiser> primer> contact lenses> concealer> foundation> brows> eyeliner> blusher, etc, whatever your make up routine is. While those don't bother dressing up really clearly gave Z E R O fucks.

Personally, i only dress up either 2/3 days out of the week because the remaining days i have dance training so i will just wear my leggings and Tshirt. Actually my dress up just means i will either wear dress or skirt or non-sneakers. HAHAHA. But ok, maybe once in a month or two i will put on make up if i have really short lessons and obviously heading out after that.

I usually braid my hair during lessons either before or after i done my work or during my work if i am kinda lost. Hahahah. Well and also lectures because i am an attentive student who listens and braids her hair at the same time. Multi tasking at its best, improve my braiding skills and listen to the lecturer. Why not? Ahahahah. 

I miss those times man! Time really fly so past that in less than a month i will be out of Toa Payoh North, my internship, is going to be over!!! And exactly 1 month 1 day, i will be out of Singapore for a week cuz i'll be in Korea! I am still not as excited but i believe the excitement will kick in later. Hehehehe.

Anyway, i'm still braiding my hair almost everyday to work because i don't like my fringe to get in my way. It sucks. Although last week i was hesitating whether to cut bangs. HAHAHA. Luckily i didn't. When it comes to hair i can say i do cut them on impulse too cuz something about cutting my hair makes me feel lighter and happier. Hahaha. 

So this is my hair do for one of the days at work and please please ignore my terrible face complexion. Omg. Hopefully, they will heal? Mehhhhh. Must be the period! 

Normal braid

Fishtail braid

Yeap, i got bored while doing my work so i kinda did my hair. Hahahaha. Looks so pretty.



So anyway, Reagan is back from Taiwan last week and he bought me an eye pad! I needed a new eye pad anyway. SO YAY. Gotten a panda design too! Haven't been sleeping well lately thus eye pad is one of the remedy to help me drift off faster.

Brain oh brain.

I need my sleep so badly every night man.

Routine: Home around 8.30pm> Run at 9pm+ for 20mins or so then workout till 10pm+> Home to bathe and wait for my hair to dry 12am.... There goes my time wasted on my hair!!! ROAR. Sleep is so important. But of course not too much, i just need 6-8 hours. Please god. :(

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Last Saturday i went to my Granny's and finally visited my Popo, cousins and nephews! I miss them so much i am so sad. I'm sucha a bad kid to not have been visiting them for months. :'''( Luckily my nephews still remembers me and let me carry and play with them. Yay. :')

They are growing so quickly, i can't.

How many kids would i want when i get married? Or would i get married? Hahahaha.

Rei and Jei.

Selfie anywhere anytime peace.

Cousin came to fetch me home after that. HOORAY MAN.

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On the Sunday, went to the temple to pray ancestors and grandparents. Decided to wake up early and go to the temple with my Dad since it's been long. Spot me if you ain't blind. Hahahaha. My Dad went, 'Y'all go and burn, since you haven't been coming to the temple.' Idk is just a remark or what but it's kinda true that my Dad have been doing these. I am a bad kid part 2. :'''(

So we headed to the Market to have breakfast with the Changs. How i miss the sinful yet delicious breakfast that have to queue for 20-30mins. The wait was definitely worth it! Hehehe.

Reached home and took a dump, so shiok! It is as if whatever i eaten is being pooped out and i didn't gain any weighgt but obviously we know this is not true or possible. Pffffft. Watched a few hours of Keeping Up With The Kardashians and honestly, i am hooked. So hillarious and of course there's sad moments. :'( // :D

It was nearly Evening and i told my Sis that i wanna bake Oatmeal cookies and she was apparently more excited than i am. LOL. Hers turn out to be more successful than mine. Why i so lousy. :( It's my Sis first timing baking also man!

Eventually, it got better after a batch! But i guess i need to buy the right ingredients too. Hahahaha. These cookies are purely made out of oatmeal, bananas and peanut butter!

Cook life didn't choose me, i choose the cook life.

And i'm gonna keep cooking or baking or whatever shizz. I wanna be able to cook for my friends and family in the future. I secretly wish i would marry a hubby who can cook though, like my Papa. ^_^ Hehehehe.

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On Monday, which was a public holiday, YAY TO NO WORK, i went out with Anna and we explored the north line. Hahahahah. We went from Woodlands to Ang Mo Kio to Upper Thomson Road.

Fun and funny adventure. We didn't really did much. Our aim was just to explore the north and not hit Town. Hahahah.

Initial plan was to go Expo and get her Macbook however plans changed and so exploring the east was cancelled. OHYA, and the train towards Pasir Ris was so crowded too so we decided on the Red line. Hahahaha

We caught a movie 7500, a horror movie at AMK and it was uninteresting! Not scary and kinda has no conclusion... Pffft...

So after I asked around my friends how do i get my ass from AMK to Upper Thomson, i still had to figure out myself. Wth man hahahaha. Well, it was interesting to be adventurous.

And of course i found it after a few hours. Muahahaha. Not bad for an directory idiot. Honestly, i might just be getting better at this. Slowly but surely.


YAY. So i wanted to try Udders for the longest time and it was a mistake sadly, the food sucks. HAHAHA. Sorry Anna. :(

Well, more trips to go since there's much more to eat around this area with recommendations by my friends or Sister or colleagues. Hehehe.

So selfie shots before dining in since we weren't really hungry too.

We chat and reminsice so much shit. Great day out with ma banana. Ended my day with her with a can of cool beer. So bad ass to know that she wanted some beers. Heheheh.

Sucha pretty shot LOL.

Took 52 back with her and went to HKE to find Xiaonard to pass him my impulse. Hahaha. I learnt my lesson.

Have a great weekends lovelies muah xx

My kind of Friday

'We live in a generation where we all have to wear masks and play parts to make it through the battlefield of dating in the 21st century. There is no such thing as giving it your all.'

Weeeee~ Finally last working day of the week and i'm able to enjoy till next Monday since it's a public holiday! Well, kinda wish i can experience Hari Raya once well maybe just not now i guess. Hahaha.

Well, i don't know is me or what but the office seems to be getting colder and colder each day and while typing this post, my hands is actually literally freezing badly. Pffffft. It's like i will suddenly spazz because it is too cold. Ahahahaha.

My hair colour in the picture look so pretty but now the colour has faded quite badly, well into pinkish purple actually and i kinda don't like the fact that it looks so pinkish cuz i think whenever i wear or have pink on me i look fake. Ahaha. I just feel like people will judge me when i wear pink and think i look well, ugly in pink... :(

Personally, why would i think of it that way is because i'm not a fan of pink. Besides that my build is quite big for a female and to me i have the thought that people who dresses in pink MUST be petite and small and tiny, like kids. Hahaha. Like you just gotta be 150ish and skinny to wear pink... Yes yes yes i know is just me. :/

Well, i do have a pink skirt and top. Like FULL PINK. I wore the top like teice and the skirt like 4/5 times. They were bought in 2013. I think is just me and the pink issues. Ahahaha.

2 hours more to go and i'm headed to School for Dance. I haven't dance since last week cuz i couldn't make it for Dance. Oh well. Less than a month and i'm outta Braddell area! Time flies!

I thought i would have many adventures along this Red Line area and explore different food places at upper Thomson especially cuz i've googled quite alot and i was so excited about it man!!! ._. But i guess i've no right company and time.

I've been pretty lazy this week at work BUT i still finish up the tasks that were thrown to me of course. I think is my period. It sure is! LOL.

I was being all cranky and happy yet annoyed yesterday. Even i myself confused myself. Gosh sounded so retarded and weird.

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So i read a website about well life basically and these quotes i quotes are probably the ones i will stick to most. To me at least, they are my top 'Note To Self'

Start making your own happiness a priority.

Start noticing and living in the present. 

Start forgiving yourself and others. 

Start being more open about how you feel. 

I shall paste the link here: Start doing for yourself!!! Read it! I think it really is useful.

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Oh oh oh, i'm actually smiling lips to lips. Hahaha. Yes this was when i was about to get my hair done. Look at that roundy fatty cutie face. Awww. HA. :)

Can't wait to head back home and bathe and watch my english drama series all night long. Weeeeee~

Muah xx

My life may not be awesomely pretty but at least my hair is

'Every person wants to feel deeply seen and understood by someone in their lives… but few people want to take the time to explain or reveal themselves.'

Yay! Finally i'm looking forward to Dinner later on! So recently my meals are pretty irregular and slightly(ok, may more than slightly) unhealthy i should say. I will have a good Breakfast though cause it is my favouriteeeee meal, skipped Lunch and Dinner instead combined them together.

Why?

Because i wanna lose weight, duh, yea since forever and i've been only saying and my actions aren't proportionate enough to match up so yea, i decided on such diet.

I've started to get my ass back on track too by running regularly on days i don't have dance. So it would be at least 3 times a week. I will also get my fat ass back to the gym on Sundays because usually i've no plans on Sunday!

I am trying WILL to stick to my words this time round and i really hope my inner strength and mind don't be so fucking weak. 

I know i can do. I know, i just know.

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So here's a break down~

Breakfast:

Peanut butter spread on wholemeal bread x2 OR Wholemeal bread with ham and cheese

2 baby bananas or 1 big banana (Depends what my Papa bought)

2 hard boiled eggs (if wake up slightly early for werk)

Lunch:

Chocolate flavoured trimshake as a replacement for meals (idky i took chocolate cuz not my fav :/)

Around 4pm-5pm:

A bowl of salad (Veggies, cherry tomatoes, carrot, chickens)

Dinner:

Chocolate flavoured trimshake as a replacement for meals

A fruit (Depends what's there at home)

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However, sometimes i will just eat fruit the rest of the day if i've no appetite or after my run because apparently i've caused my stomach to be eating itself on the inside hence no appetite. :/ (really bad)

An after run selfie from ytd. Ahahaha. I literally did lunges my way through the highway area and i dare say i did 100!!! Not in one goal though but still!

My ass is aching madly like a bad bitch. Even by walking... But i love it. 

Okay, here's a dirty little secret i would like to share, ever since day 1 i tried squats till today, now. I'm proud to say my ass have transformed and yes, i checked and touched my ass everyday that's because it makes me happy to see it is getting in shape!!! 

Call me sick means you don't squat. HMP. So yeap. More to go. I can't really admire my back profile but the side profile is good enough! You know when you see dat ass gets curvier and perkier. Eyegasm. Ahahahahaha. 

So on Sunday, i ran 8km in about an hour and is slower than my usual pace since i just officially get back on track. So i ran the PIE route which is my first time and there's only forest and road and a dark path.

I won't lie, i was literally praying that nothing will fucking happen!!! This is probably my first time praying while i run man. AHAHAHA. Thinking about it makes me wanna laugh. That is not the funny part. Read on!

The funny part was when i was halfway running and praying... Suddenly freaking human RAN PAST ME! What i did? I FUCKING SCREAMED. HAHAHAHAHA. I checked my behind ocassionally for my safety and there was no one so i wasn't expecting anyone to ran pass me but look what happened.

It was major embarrassment. It was just another runner and i just had to scream. Yeap. Luckily he was on his headphones and run faster than me. He probably got shocked my my screamed but just continued running cuz he don't hafta do anything either.

It was so funny i was running and giggling to myself the next moment. Fool much. Heh.

Well, It was stretching time when i was done with my run all sweaty and wet. Oh gosh. Feel so good yet nasty! Did my squats and handstands shizz. I danced a little because the song playing on my iPhone. Hmm mmm, i waz feeling it baby! Ahahahah. ;)

Alright, enough about my current life although there's many little details to talk about.

So i was talking about dinner! So some times back i won this vouchers from Peach Garden and yes gonna dine there later! 

Googled the menu and the food seems not bad! Hopefully we won't get lost when we are on our way there later though since it is located at Orchid Country Club and i've never been there before!

Of course, tip to losing weight is to eat in moderation! Exercise regularly. I ain't no expert but these tips are read from else where. Treat yourself maybe once every 2 weeks? But then again, you're not a dog so why would you treat yourself with food? Hahahah. Well, i'm glad i'm not a fan of desserts. Hehehehe.

Alright, back to werk. Hehehe. Update soonz. Muah xx