Time indeed flies and it's already February. A lot of things happened, regardless good or bad. This month is going to be a busy month with all the school project submissions and exams at the end of the month. I can foresee myself to be fucking stress and worried, not only about studies.
It's been good the last month but my drunk soul happened so I fucked up some things when it's all good. I don't know what exactly did I said but I definitely messed up big time. Insecurities and fears are devouring me inside out and I don't fucking know what to do.
I'm still kinda new to it and at times I feel like I have made a huge mistake but I know I gotta start somewhere. Nothing good comes easy and I know it damn well. Keeping myself occupy this month is easy, physically but mental wise I don't know if I can although I know I should.
One month. One month is 30 days and within that period of time a hugeass things can happened!!! C'mon just look at how I fucked things up with a phonecall...
'Do what makes you happy', this motto of mine is slowly fading because whenever I tell this to my sad and fearful self, I know that I can't be so selfish anymore and I gotta think for others.
Well, at the end of the day, whatever is being said here doesn't really matter because my life still have to go on and I just gotta live with whatever shit that's in me. I am seriously very afraid. I just want things to be happy and good...
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