'Instead of wasting time and energy trying to do the impossible, why not do the next best thing? Learn to deal with people as they are in order to get the result you desire. If you can’t change them, then guide them to do as you wish. Otherwise, let them go.'
Well hello there! It's Monday! No, i'm not excited because it is Monday but it means closer to the last day of my Internship on 21st August! Another 8 days and i'm officially out of here. Time really flies man, I've been here close to 5 months and honestly, it doesn't feel like it at all man.
Personally, I think Internship is scary? From the working environment to the people to reality basically. I really can't imagine myself being a legit adult and working 5 days a week, 9am-6pm. It just scares me. Right now having my Internship, i already feel like i don't have a life because my Morning and Afternoon are literally taken away from me, i mean my life, cannot be taken back. :'(
As much as i don't wish to think of my future, but just take one step at a time and see what's there for me, it is just not enough and risky. They said, 'if you fail to plan, means you plan to fail', and that is really true. C'mon obviously, i'm concern about my future, i mean in this century who isn't??? Unless you are rich as fuck or talented/gifted as fuck then you probably can relax.
I'm really worried for my next semester. I'm so afriad i won't do well. I wanna do well and it really is my last shot to do well too. So i can't choose at all. It's literally do or die. Why? Because after that, i will be graduating with whatever i scored! Ugh. It is just upsetting to know that it is getting more and more competitive every single fucking day.
As much as i want to go University, the thought of smarter humans out there just bring me down or rather crush me. All i can think of is, 'So what if i did well? It is definitely not enough and there's definitely more humans out there scoring better than me. So how? What do i fucking do? I mean i can't do anything but study. However, it just isn't fucking enough and it just fucking annoys the shit out of me! Dammit fuck my life.' #life
Then when i stress myself with all these bloody future plans, i will tryna chill myself down and say take one step at a time and the whole fucking cycle repeats. Gosh ughhhhh :(
Life or life?
_|_ ahahaha _|_
OK OK OK DONT THINK
So i've been going home straight after work because my running shoes await me. Hahahaha. So this was taken a week back or so, i can't remember. And i actually feel like a different person in some ways..... Do i look different??? I hope i do, i like changes, depends on what though.
So i will selfie before my run if i'm early for my run, yes i usually run at 9pm and no it not early. Hahahaha wtf. Well, i have been quite interested in my own biceps lately. I mean i've been flexing it and looking at it although it is still small and tiny but well, i have to admit it is muscular, to me ok to me. Hmp.
I haven't lift in months and i feel useless. Can't wait to lift me some weights.
Thank god, handstands and pushups to help me tone those little baby bit by bits. Hehehe.
Well, those pictures are my pre run but after my run i will look like shit and sweaty and i love it. LOL. I mean i sweat easily and i really look shit but feels gooooood. Hehehe.
Post #runfie ahahaha
I decided to tgiw this week although i know i've work the next day but i just wanna have a taste of how dead will i feel and look. Probably gonna die at work. Hahahahah. But i think it will be fun. Well, haven't been to tgiw for 5 months soooooo... Hahahaha.
Friday probably gonna be another round too. Weeeee~ Well, people thinks i party every week but no i actually don't... I love my isolated stay home weekends accompanied by my friends or dramas too... There must always be a balance and it fun when you have a balance of both. You will feel that your life is interesting! ;)
Hair i did for work last week or so. Have been wearing my hair up cuz da pink too pink, my heart can't take it.
Personally, I think Internship is scary? From the working environment to the people to reality basically. I really can't imagine myself being a legit adult and working 5 days a week, 9am-6pm. It just scares me. Right now having my Internship, i already feel like i don't have a life because my Morning and Afternoon are literally taken away from me, i mean my life, cannot be taken back. :'(
As much as i don't wish to think of my future, but just take one step at a time and see what's there for me, it is just not enough and risky. They said, 'if you fail to plan, means you plan to fail', and that is really true. C'mon obviously, i'm concern about my future, i mean in this century who isn't??? Unless you are rich as fuck or talented/gifted as fuck then you probably can relax.
I'm really worried for my next semester. I'm so afriad i won't do well. I wanna do well and it really is my last shot to do well too. So i can't choose at all. It's literally do or die. Why? Because after that, i will be graduating with whatever i scored! Ugh. It is just upsetting to know that it is getting more and more competitive every single fucking day.
As much as i want to go University, the thought of smarter humans out there just bring me down or rather crush me. All i can think of is, 'So what if i did well? It is definitely not enough and there's definitely more humans out there scoring better than me. So how? What do i fucking do? I mean i can't do anything but study. However, it just isn't fucking enough and it just fucking annoys the shit out of me! Dammit fuck my life.' #life
Then when i stress myself with all these bloody future plans, i will tryna chill myself down and say take one step at a time and the whole fucking cycle repeats. Gosh ughhhhh :(
Life or life?
_|_ ahahaha _|_
OK OK OK DONT THINK
So i've been going home straight after work because my running shoes await me. Hahahaha. So this was taken a week back or so, i can't remember. And i actually feel like a different person in some ways..... Do i look different??? I hope i do, i like changes, depends on what though.
So i will selfie before my run if i'm early for my run, yes i usually run at 9pm and no it not early. Hahahaha wtf. Well, i have been quite interested in my own biceps lately. I mean i've been flexing it and looking at it although it is still small and tiny but well, i have to admit it is muscular, to me ok to me. Hmp.
I haven't lift in months and i feel useless. Can't wait to lift me some weights.
Thank god, handstands and pushups to help me tone those little baby bit by bits. Hehehe.
Well, those pictures are my pre run but after my run i will look like shit and sweaty and i love it. LOL. I mean i sweat easily and i really look shit but feels gooooood. Hehehe.
Post #runfie ahahaha
I decided to tgiw this week although i know i've work the next day but i just wanna have a taste of how dead will i feel and look. Probably gonna die at work. Hahahahah. But i think it will be fun. Well, haven't been to tgiw for 5 months soooooo... Hahahaha.
Friday probably gonna be another round too. Weeeee~ Well, people thinks i party every week but no i actually don't... I love my isolated stay home weekends accompanied by my friends or dramas too... There must always be a balance and it fun when you have a balance of both. You will feel that your life is interesting! ;)
Hair i did for work last week or so. Have been wearing my hair up cuz da pink too pink, my heart can't take it.
Tattoos, loving ittttttttt. Still searching. Weeeeeeee~
Pink hair, pink lips
(my friend thought i was naked when i showed this picture... I lmao)
muah
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